Talking to Myself

 It's going to get very cold in the next few days.  

That is not unusual for January.  Thehubs has his 75th Birthday Sunday and we had planned to spend a nice evening at the local casino. But, the Chiefs play Saturday night and this weather will be so cold. Instead we will have a few people over to watch the game and I will prepare appetizers.  I am thinking spinach artichoke dip, pickle roll ups, wings, maybe chili with red velvet cake for his sweet birthday.

I am still healing from my spine and hip surgeries.

I am progressing very well and just have to be patient.  I didn't know that carrying something in your hands while walking could be so hard.  I will be using my bone stimulator another 4 months for 2 hours a day. I am lucky I have always done stretches and rotations for my fibromyalgia. This has been a big benefit in my recovery.

My mental health is getting better. I just started a new anxiety medicine and so far it is helping with a few side effects. Hopefully I won't be on it long.  I have had a hard time picking myself up after these few months of so much pain.  I do know that a younger body heals faster than this old one.  I have been tested and I am working to get better. I have a great psychologist and she is opening my eyes to what I had lost when we buried our kids these past few years. We are still lost at the holidays. It is hard to say that I am no longer a mom, it hurts, and I need to find my own identity. 2024 will be interesting. I am walking in uncharted territory.

My word for 2024 is kindness. I want to be more kind, be surrounded by kind souls, feel the kindness of others and give kindness first. I also plan to remove myself from unkind conversations or events. My second word is fun.  I want more fun, to be more fun and to laugh more.